2.23.10

so validating:
"you couldn't have looked cuter"
makes my day better!

always amazed at
the amount of giggling
that professors do

four hours of work
tedious, tedious things
it's the GA curse

of course she'd be in
a meeting at the moment
i want to head out.

what did i eat that
made my stomach decide to
launch a brutal coup?

dear my subconscious
please stop the weird blood dreams
and leave me in peace

2.05.10

five a.m. i'm up.
dreams with the same theme: failure
have chased me awake

eyes flew, open. wide.
black air of early hours
was all i could see

i feel too driven
like i'm a sperm, life's an egg
compelled to succeed

to find a way in
for a reason beyond me
only the impulse

12.5.09

so much potential
should I stay on the right track
but there's something else.

tres mysterieux
feelings bump, grind and twirl
without my consent

if I have one more
unknown variable here
I will lose my shit

I'm amazed, appalled
at my anger, confusion;
at our behavior.

at his behavior.
but mainly my behavior.
...my own worst critic.

it's birthday time
and this year it's tiring
and not exciting.

10.22.09

thnx for nothing, subconscious

an extra half hour
i stay in bed; does no good
stress dreams are the worst

cold feet, literally

first foot out of bed
that's always the hardest part
leaving the cocoon