12.5.09

so much potential
should I stay on the right track
but there's something else.

tres mysterieux
feelings bump, grind and twirl
without my consent

if I have one more
unknown variable here
I will lose my shit

I'm amazed, appalled
at my anger, confusion;
at our behavior.

at his behavior.
but mainly my behavior.
...my own worst critic.

it's birthday time
and this year it's tiring
and not exciting.